Right, I think some readers deserve to know why I’ve not been updating so much. I had a really shitty year in university, that much so I’ve lost my passion for the subject I am studying and lost a lot of creative confidence. Meaning, I’ve lost quite a bit towards my writing.. Which strangely has impacted on it. Generally I was made to feel pretty low about my photography work, creativity and as a person.. Despite straight distinctions beforehand on my first course, work published in magazines etc.. It’s the lecturers fault as others have also felt mistreated and bullied. Favouritism is extremely obvious and a massive issue.
Another reason, I fell quite poorly with recently diagnosed Colitis. Doctors I was seeing said they didn’t believe me despite endoscopy surgeons diagnosing it, I had no idea I even had it. So I was in a lot of discomfort and pain daily, then I was becoming anaemic/low blood pressure and lacking b12 because it’s not getting seen too/sorted out.
I’m constantly tired and it’s really hard to be impulsive about anything, I work to make a living as most people and just about manage to keep up with my horse. I’ve had her for 9 years so she’s a huge priority, but I’m even finding that hard with how tired I am getting. I used to be so active and impulsive it’s getting me down a little bit.
I am hoping to get some confidence back to post my writing and find some creativity. So I apologise for it being slow and next to no activity. I’m not usually a blabber mouth about my life or problem poster, but it’s easier to explain as one post instead of individually..
Kuroshitsuji / CHP. 31 / The Scene I’m Looking Forwards to Most Tbh.